Ursula's Journey (Comments Welcome)

[Dreamer04]

Good morning.

I've been going to WW for 5 weeks now. At my last weighing, I gained 1.6 lbs. I knew I hadn't been sticking to my points. I had no "face-stuffings" foods in the house. No grapes, strawberries, diet cookies-nothing.I was at sea!

So, I went shopping. I need "face-stuffing" food. When I get anxious I can't think straight until I eat. I know it sounds weird, but its like if I don't start shoving food in my mouth real soon, I'll blow up!


This journal thing is a good idea. I never saw these crazy thoughts printed before. It kind of takes away their power.

I have always been chubby. But, since I quit smoking, I have gained 40 lbs in about a year and a half. Crazy eating.

So here I am. In all honesty, I feel better today than I have in years. I feel more in control of my life. I feel uplifted.

Ok, talk to you soon.

 

[TigerCheer2009]

Hello, hello, hello! Welcome to WISH Journaling!!! You've found an absolutely wonderful place to be.

I've been there, done that, got the refillable mug on the face-stuffing thing. Sometimes it still creeps out, but that's when I come to the WISH boards and type like crazy. "Today was awful, I really wanted this and this, can I tell you what happened" kind of days happen to everyone, and I control mine by chewing gum, drinking water, and keeping my hands busy. I break out the Playdoh, color, type or exercise-getting out of the house and bringing no money with me (even if I say it will be for a water bottle, that water turns in to nachos/a hot dog/an ice cream) always helps.

Remember, you can do this! I'm pulling for you...read other people's journals because it really helps.

And now, a cheer!
Ursula!
Get to it!
I know that you can do it!
Exercise, eat right and h20!
Look out, Ursula's chubalub, here you go!

Good luck!

 

[Tasha+Scott]

Hi, Ursula, and welcome to WISH!

Congrats on giving up smoking! That is such a huge accomplishment in itself!

 

[Cruise04]

Welcome!!!! This is the perfect place for you to come, especially when you are having a bad day. And, yes, writing everything out sometimes does make you take a look and say WOW. It has helped me over the last week or so.

And congrats on the quitting smoking - KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!!!

Keep on
Chris

 

[Dreamer04]

WOW! Thanks so much everyone. Your enthusiasum contagious. I really appreciate the support.

Ursula

 

[karynnix]

This journal thing is a good idea. I never saw these crazy thoughts printed before. It kind of takes away their power.

What a wonderful quote. That is exactly what this journal is for. We have to stop letting food rule our lives and take control BACK. I have found that since I started my journal 11 days ago, that I am more focused than I have ever been. Instead of eating until I feel bad, I am thinking about every bite that I take. I have taken control of myself. It's a very powerful feeling. Good luck to you and I'll be checking in!!

 

[honeymo78]

Hi Ursula and welcome. I never believed it before but these journals are a lifesaver. Sometimes just seeing your behavior in print can help you get motivated. Plus this is a great support system and someone is always there to listen. Welcome again and we are all so happy you joined us.

 

[Dreamer04]

Today I weighed in at WW and I lost 1.8 lbs!! I am soo happy.
I feel energized and focused. I plan to add exercise to my journey tomorrow!

My DD 8 is so supportive. DH doesn't have the energy and he has heard it all before.

 

[Cruise04]

Good for you on the weight loss - BRAVO!!!!! And if your dh has heard it all before, we haven't so keep coming!!!!!!!!

Keep on
Chris

 

[karynnix]

Good for you!!! It's so much better to lose than to gain, isn't it??? Keep it up!!!!!

 

[Dreamer04]

It's been almost 3 years since I last posted to my journal. The only good thing I can say is that I am still off cigarettes.

I quit smoking in Feb '04. By July of '05 I ballooned up to 225 lbs. I lost about 30 pounds by August '06. Now I am back up to 220 lbs. I noticed in my earlier posts that I never mentioned my actual weight.

It is unfortunate, but my marriage is in trouble, for a variety of reasons. I am getting help though and I will come through this. Today I focus on what is in front of me. For example, if I am at work, I focus on my job. If I am doing laundry, then that is my focus. This tool keeps my mind straight and my emotions calm. I mention it because it is actualy easier to vents and scream, but it serves no purpose. I can do that in the car, or on the phone with my sister. But, when I am home, I want to keep my wits about me.

I am not trying to lose weight, just maintain for now. If the numbers drift down-so be it. Since I am also having some financial difficulty, I am brown-bagging it to work. I am saving a ton of money and eating healthier.

The reason I update my post is I want others like me to know-its okay that your life isn't perfect-no one has a perfect life. Life is life-just get back in and swing at whatever comes your way.

 

[MickeyDee]

Wow! Looks like we both picked today to come back to our journals after years-long hiatuses!

Just wanted to wish you well on your maintenance and with all that you are going through with your marriage.

Hang in there!

 

[Dreamer04]

..And I am still fat. My marriage is still in trouble, I am still getting help and just doing what is in front of me. I am up to 235 lbs and I am miserable about my weight.

I was thinking about writing a blog regarding my weight loss, then I remembered this journal. So, I have set some goals-but they are VERY small goals.

First, this evening, my goal is to not eat junk food. I will have a salad and grilled chicken for dinner and then a frozen fruit pop for a snack later on.

Second, I will go for a walk tomorrow-even in the heat. It's won't kill me.

That's it. I can't really make any other promises to myself than those. I keep disappointing myself. So, I'm back and I have some hope today.