Ok, so I started, then work decided to derail me
I have been at my office for right at 3 months and we have never had a meeting that involved breakfast. Well, Yesterday we had our unit meeting and my supervisor brought everyone doughnuts and sausage biscuits! I tried to just eat the doughnuts since they aren't Exactly fast food, but that sausage biscuit kept calling my name
I ate about 4 bites of it which was about half
SO I think I have failed already. But I am willing to start over on today or add a day onto my total or whatever you think my punishment to be. I didn't go and buy it and I did resist eating the Whole thing, but in the end I did give in to the temptation. I have so little will power!
I should have posted a day or two ago for my food, cause now I can't remember exactly what I ate and I am bad about leaving things out. I think I remember most of it so I will list what I remember.
Wednesday
B- cereal
L- greek chickpea salad
D- chicken, lentil, broccoli, & cauliflower curry stew that DH created. YUM
S- one chocolate chip cookie
Thursday
B- Cereal
S- Slimfast chocolate snack bar (tastes like a butterfinger, but only 120 calories!)
L- tuna salad sandwich w/ lettuce and cheese, apple
D- leftover spaghetti, one cookie
S- vanilla vodka and coke
Friday
B- cereal
S- 2 doughnuts
and about half of a sausage biscuit
L- HC cheesy chicken and rice w/ carrots & broccoli
D- leftover chicken & lentil curry stew
S- vanilla vodka and coke, 1 smirnoff ice (ran out of vodka
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So far today I have had nothing and done nothing. I slept later than intended. We will have lunch soon. Not sure what yet. I am thinking canned soup and a sandwich or something of that sort. We HAD a bad habit of getting up on Saturdays and going to get lunch, which usually amounted to something we could easily have made ourselves.
Guess we'll have to start getting more creative.
I am SO glad it is the WEEKEND!!!
I don't know if I could have made it through another day of the work week! I did wake up this morning thinking about my clients, which is NOT good, but it wasn't really a stressful sort of thinking. I worked until 7:15 last night and saw a lot of families in the last 2 or 3 days. I haven't documented all of my visits yet, so they are all kind of starting to blur together in my head. I am trying to remember who had bunkbeds and who didn't, etc. I am taking a "Work Away" day on Monday, so that I can work from home and get caught up on some of my paperwork. I think that will help ALOT! I don't feel like I can get Anything done at the office these days! Plus just being there makes me feel overwhelmed and depressed. I think staying at home I will get a TON done and be able to go back to work feeling slightly more on top of things.
I have determined that one of the things that bugs me about this job is that I like control. I like to have a plan and be in control of what is going on from day to day. However, this job is WAY too crazy for me to have any measure of control. My supervisor said you just have to tell yourself you'll never be caught up and on top of things. UH, NO. I can't live like that permanently. I think that I could be caught up and on top of things if we had the right number of case workers and therefore the right number of cases! Recently the state of Georgia was sued over the high case loads in Atlanta, because a kid died because the case workers were too overworked and didn't see the child. Now we are supposed to have no more than 20 cases at a time. When I started I had 26! Now I have 29 PLUS 13 of the "empty caseload" cases. They won't transfer the cases to us even though they expect us to take care of them! They won't do it because then it would show that I am responsible for 42 cases, which is more than anyone person should be expected to keep track of!
Anyway, I got an email the other day from a friend in the office that I trained in. She said that they have a position open and the director wants to know if I want to come back! I said ABSOLUTELY!! I am going to call over there on Monday and see what I need to do. I am not getting my hopes up though because I was told that we have to stay in our original placement for at least 6 months before transfering. That means I have 3 more months
I need to start a ticker for that! Like how many days and hours left before I can leave!
My supervisor said something Friday to me and the other worker because we are both from Macon. She was saying that we asked to be here and wouldn't leave or something like that. I flat out said NO way. I never asked to come here and I am leaving the first opportunity I get. No point in lying about it. I told her the first thing was that the drive is WAY too long and then the case load is Unbearable. So I already wanted to leave and now it is Definite. Cause from what I understand this isn't the only time that they have been SO under staffed and it will be awhile before they get fully staffed again.
OK, I'm done griping and going on and on about work. I just have to dig in and bear with it for 3 more months. I should be able to do that if Linda can hang in with her job for 4 years!
Today I am going to try to get in some outdoor activity! We may go for a hike somewhere or just play frisbee here in the yard. We are planning to grill out this evening. Our weather has been beautiful lately!!
The house is coming along fast!! They painted this week! The whole interior (except our giant downstairs room) is a light blue. It is a bit brighter than we had imagined, but I think it will be nice. I will try to take some pictures today, but they may not get up on the web this weekend. I will let you guys know when they have been updated.
Have a WONDERFUL Saturday!!