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- Sep 1, 2005
Hey ladies. Just a quick drive by hi. I have a horrible cold and my grandpa just passed away this morning. He has been in the hospital for two weeks, yesterday he seemed fine and was hitting on the nurses and chattering away. This morning he passed away. So sad, I'm crushed that I'm so far away. I can't afford a flight home to the funeral especially since I'm moving home in just a month and I feel so guilty. Anyway, I'll try to catch up with everyone as soon as I'm able.
Take care of yourselves until then!
Hi Christina,
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. It's never easy losing a loved one and I am sure your grandpa knows that you wanted to be there. Please don't feel guilty or beat yourself up for it. It's not your fault and it was something that just couldn't be helped. I'm sure he understands that and he knows that you loved him. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.
I know this isn't the same situation but when my grandpa was sick, I thought that he would go to the hospital and be home in no time. I did visit him while in the hospital before he passed away but I couldn't handle it. He was having trouble breathing on his own and all I remember was that his body was hooked up to a machine and his chest seemed to jerk in a slight motion up and down to breathe and I just couldn't bare it and just cried so horribly. My grandma started crying watching me cry and she said: "Don't let him hear you cry, you have to not let him know you are crying, he wouldn't want you to be sad" and it was just too damn hard to not cry. My older sister wanted to see him in the hospital but she said she didn't want to watch him suffer and wouldn't be able to tolerate it.
I miss him a lot, my whole family does. He was such a loving and caring and smart person. There are times when I really miss him.
Hang in there and we are all here for you.
P.S. I'm also sorry to hear that you are not feeling well on top of all this. I hope you feel better soon.