eyor44
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- May 26, 2008
I began this writing about a month ago and finally decided to post it.
Occasionally I browse the DisBoards to see what is new or I havent browsed before. I am bad about just checking my subs and nothing else. Well, I found this thread and would like to join in. After 40+ years of living not so healthy I made a conscience decision a few months ago to change that. I try to make more healthy choices when eating, especially when eating out, I have walked off and on for the past 20 years, but about three years ago all of that changed.
A little bit of history. As a child I was always a bit overweight, my whole family was. I was uncomfortable about it and as a teenager, was always on a diet. I even tried diet pills one time, but didnt see a difference. Finally by 11th grade I was happy with where I was. After high school, I got married and had a baby. Immediately my mother and her friends kept telling me to give it up, that I would never be thin again. That frightened me. Not something to tell a young, new mother with hormones out of whack. Well, I did start losing weight. Not consciously though. A bad marriage and being poor, can do that to you. I bought a minimal amount of food for me so that my son could have what he needed. I planned meals very carefully so I didnt over buy and there was no waste. I was so nervous anyway that any extra food would have been a waste. I got down to 89lbs and was wearing a childs size 14. Part of my weight loss was also the fact that I was exercising too much and didnt realize it. I would take my son for two walks and one bike ride a day. As I said we were very poor and didnt have any extra money for any kind of entertainment. I finally ended up at the doctor who ran an incredible number of tests and finally diagnosed my husband as the problem. He said there was nothing medically he could do for me other than put me in the hospital when I got real bad and try to keep me comfortable until I died. He suggested I seriously consider getting rid of my problem (ex-husband). That was a real wake up call. I did some serious soul searching and long story short, took his advice.
My health returned and I was good for several years, but never completely healthy. I have always been a sickly person. I remarried several years later, had another child and refused to listen to what anyone had to say about my weight. I lost it all and was very happy with myself. Then I had my third child and never got quite back to where I was before I became pregnant the third time. Then 2005 came around. 2005 was a very bad year. My father passed away, I was faced with fighting for my job and the very real prospect of losing it, we were trying to sell our house to build a new one and other stuff that on its own would have been incredibly minor. Then Hurricane Katrina struck and my world was turned upside down. I ended up in New York with the two younger kids for four weeks. We didnt lose our house but there was significant damage to it. And the kicker was, we had found a buyer and it was under contract with a closing date of the middle of September. We had to fix the house before we could sell it and find a new place to live. We had a rental for while we were building, but that house was destroyed. Also, my building at work had significant damage and I am the assistant building manager. I suddenly went from living in a quiet little town to dealing with tons of cleanup at home and at work, recovery, refugees and workers who couldnt speak English. The stress was too much for me. I finally visited my family doctor, who knew my life and family history and while he knows my distaste for any kind of medication, he convinced me to give it a try. It helped, but it also made me gain weight. One of the rare side effects and within a few months I had gained 27lbs and not realized it.
Fast forwarded to now. About six months ago I lost 7lbs and thats it. I keep trying to get back into walking but dont have the time to do it on a regular basis. I am one of those people who put everyone else first. Well, it has affected my health and I am about to get tough. DH is always busy and not home in the evenings. Whether it is the fire department or bowling, he is always gone. DD cant keep up with my pace to walk with me and the dog, nor can I leave her at home while I go by myself. To leave her with DS is a sure fight for some unknown reason right now. I am trying to work on it and figure out what is going on with those two. Plus we have basket ball and soccer in the evenings. I have to figure out a consistent time for me.
Welcome! Come and join me on my journey and learn about my new goal.
Occasionally I browse the DisBoards to see what is new or I havent browsed before. I am bad about just checking my subs and nothing else. Well, I found this thread and would like to join in. After 40+ years of living not so healthy I made a conscience decision a few months ago to change that. I try to make more healthy choices when eating, especially when eating out, I have walked off and on for the past 20 years, but about three years ago all of that changed.
A little bit of history. As a child I was always a bit overweight, my whole family was. I was uncomfortable about it and as a teenager, was always on a diet. I even tried diet pills one time, but didnt see a difference. Finally by 11th grade I was happy with where I was. After high school, I got married and had a baby. Immediately my mother and her friends kept telling me to give it up, that I would never be thin again. That frightened me. Not something to tell a young, new mother with hormones out of whack. Well, I did start losing weight. Not consciously though. A bad marriage and being poor, can do that to you. I bought a minimal amount of food for me so that my son could have what he needed. I planned meals very carefully so I didnt over buy and there was no waste. I was so nervous anyway that any extra food would have been a waste. I got down to 89lbs and was wearing a childs size 14. Part of my weight loss was also the fact that I was exercising too much and didnt realize it. I would take my son for two walks and one bike ride a day. As I said we were very poor and didnt have any extra money for any kind of entertainment. I finally ended up at the doctor who ran an incredible number of tests and finally diagnosed my husband as the problem. He said there was nothing medically he could do for me other than put me in the hospital when I got real bad and try to keep me comfortable until I died. He suggested I seriously consider getting rid of my problem (ex-husband). That was a real wake up call. I did some serious soul searching and long story short, took his advice.
My health returned and I was good for several years, but never completely healthy. I have always been a sickly person. I remarried several years later, had another child and refused to listen to what anyone had to say about my weight. I lost it all and was very happy with myself. Then I had my third child and never got quite back to where I was before I became pregnant the third time. Then 2005 came around. 2005 was a very bad year. My father passed away, I was faced with fighting for my job and the very real prospect of losing it, we were trying to sell our house to build a new one and other stuff that on its own would have been incredibly minor. Then Hurricane Katrina struck and my world was turned upside down. I ended up in New York with the two younger kids for four weeks. We didnt lose our house but there was significant damage to it. And the kicker was, we had found a buyer and it was under contract with a closing date of the middle of September. We had to fix the house before we could sell it and find a new place to live. We had a rental for while we were building, but that house was destroyed. Also, my building at work had significant damage and I am the assistant building manager. I suddenly went from living in a quiet little town to dealing with tons of cleanup at home and at work, recovery, refugees and workers who couldnt speak English. The stress was too much for me. I finally visited my family doctor, who knew my life and family history and while he knows my distaste for any kind of medication, he convinced me to give it a try. It helped, but it also made me gain weight. One of the rare side effects and within a few months I had gained 27lbs and not realized it.
Fast forwarded to now. About six months ago I lost 7lbs and thats it. I keep trying to get back into walking but dont have the time to do it on a regular basis. I am one of those people who put everyone else first. Well, it has affected my health and I am about to get tough. DH is always busy and not home in the evenings. Whether it is the fire department or bowling, he is always gone. DD cant keep up with my pace to walk with me and the dog, nor can I leave her at home while I go by myself. To leave her with DS is a sure fight for some unknown reason right now. I am trying to work on it and figure out what is going on with those two. Plus we have basket ball and soccer in the evenings. I have to figure out a consistent time for me.
Welcome! Come and join me on my journey and learn about my new goal.