UGH! Today is my darling sister's birthday. I really miss her. I haven't seen her since MY birthday in early June. And there is no guarantee I will see here before I move. Her DH is in Cinncinatti for the day, so she is at home alone with her 3 little ones, all under 7. Wish I could be there with her today. I am sooo premenstral, I have half a mind to just chuck it all and head up ther for a few hours. Problem is, it would take me 6 hours just for the trip there and back. It sucks being so far away from family, and I'm going even farther.
DH leaves For LA first thing Sunday morning (5:50!),so that give us a whole day and a few hours together, and being that I am so crazy nutzy kookoo, I doubt it will be any kind of quality time. Whe I get like this his primary function is damage control. He manages mu day for me so I don't take on too much and become frustrated and um, violent. Violent is maybe too strong a word, but definately confrontational. He's thankful he's here though, as (I think he fears for the safety of our children LOL!) he says it's one of the few times he knows I really need him for something and that makes him feel good.
Of course I'm avoiding any discussion about my progress, as it has been anything but, unless going up is progress. Hit 156 this morning! Now, I know I didn't gain 3 pound of fat, but I am just miserable! I knew I should have stayed off that darned scale, but I just had to know. I could feel it in my clothes and see it in my face. I have been good for the most part, and should be amintaining, but I think my old metablism has settled back in and I really need to jump start it again. I have just not been feeling up to much this past two weeks. Laundry wipes me out. I even have to lay down after a shower!
I think my plan for today should be to draw the blinds, leave the phone off the hook and lock the doors and go back to bed! Wake me up tomorrow at 1:00 p.m. (MICHIGAN vs.OSU)
But, I will try to be good.
Had breakfast, oatbran ceral mixed with muslix, and skim milk. Have had 20 oz of water so far.
Will have a salad for lunch.
Spaghetti for dinner.
I think I may make some bread today to keep my mind occupied, and in the kitchen. I will not go into DD's bedroom (upon instruction from DH) today as that would put me over the edge.
So that is my short term plan. It may all unravel, and I'm sure tomorrow's game will be a deal buster too, but it is the last game of the year, so ....
Keep the Faith!
Tracy
DH leaves For LA first thing Sunday morning (5:50!),so that give us a whole day and a few hours together, and being that I am so crazy nutzy kookoo, I doubt it will be any kind of quality time. Whe I get like this his primary function is damage control. He manages mu day for me so I don't take on too much and become frustrated and um, violent. Violent is maybe too strong a word, but definately confrontational. He's thankful he's here though, as (I think he fears for the safety of our children LOL!) he says it's one of the few times he knows I really need him for something and that makes him feel good.
Of course I'm avoiding any discussion about my progress, as it has been anything but, unless going up is progress. Hit 156 this morning! Now, I know I didn't gain 3 pound of fat, but I am just miserable! I knew I should have stayed off that darned scale, but I just had to know. I could feel it in my clothes and see it in my face. I have been good for the most part, and should be amintaining, but I think my old metablism has settled back in and I really need to jump start it again. I have just not been feeling up to much this past two weeks. Laundry wipes me out. I even have to lay down after a shower!
I think my plan for today should be to draw the blinds, leave the phone off the hook and lock the doors and go back to bed! Wake me up tomorrow at 1:00 p.m. (MICHIGAN vs.OSU)
But, I will try to be good.
Had breakfast, oatbran ceral mixed with muslix, and skim milk. Have had 20 oz of water so far.
Will have a salad for lunch.
Spaghetti for dinner.
I think I may make some bread today to keep my mind occupied, and in the kitchen. I will not go into DD's bedroom (upon instruction from DH) today as that would put me over the edge.
So that is my short term plan. It may all unravel, and I'm sure tomorrow's game will be a deal buster too, but it is the last game of the year, so ....
Keep the Faith!
Tracy