4Mickeys
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- Jul 29, 2014
I can't believe we've reached our last substantive question of the month!!! For the weekend and our final Monday, let's talk about Fear. What role does fear play in your life and in your weight loss journey? Let's dish!
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Final check-ins! You can post your results anytime between now (or yesterday for the early birds) and Tuesday night. I'll post our final results on Wednesday.
Ah like so many of you fear is a big part of my life. I remember being anxious as a child going to school - I always hated that first day of school. Felt shy of big social situations. Fast forward to motherhood and fear slammed me - leaving me with Panic Disorder and General Anxiety Disorder. Like others I have learnt to mostly overcome it but it does sneak up and slap me when I least expect it. For as much as I fear though I have survived some of the things I feared and whilst I don't always think so I am assured by others of how strong I actually am. As for my weight loss the anxiety played a role in my gaining - eating to feel better - but fear plays a role in losing or not losing it - I find it difficult to get my heart rate up and be comfortable in pushing my body in that uncomfortable hot phase of exercising as a big factor in my anxiety is something going wrong internally that will result in death e.g. blood clot, stroke, etc etc you get the idea. So this makes it hard for me to hit the level of activity I need to lose weight. I also feel like I have in part gained weight to shield myself from the world. I fear I will never become the new me that I picture in my head and that I will continue to pile on the weight!
Fear is definitely my leading emotion. I'm a worrier and I've spent a lot of my life NOT doing thinks because of fear of failure or death. Trying to get over that since I have a 100% success rate at both bouncing back from failures (usually learning something valuable in the process) and not dying. I think fear is a huge part of my problem when it comes to my weight loss goals. I eat when I'm afraid, I'm afraid of what might happen if I lose the invisibility cloak of fat, and I'm afraid of sweating. Plus I could fail! Sigh. Just don't know what to do.....
Maggie - this is another area where you and I seem so similar .... its nice to know I'm not alone in these feelings.
first of all - and this is huge - I reached Onederland this month! First time in 13 years!
Congratulations!
(1) I am really, really close to leaving "obese" behind and being "overweight" on the BMI chart (BMI 30.6)
(2) I am really, really close to being down 100 lbs (only 3.5lbs to go)
More for you these are huge milestones - so happy for you.
Few months ago I looked myself in the mirror and felt like crying. The year we dealt with my husbands cancer, the fear of what may happen have taken over me. I was constantly sad, wore baggy clothes, gained weight, didn't look after myself at all. I felt so .. old and lost. I lost my mum, my uncle, my granddad all under age of 35 all same type of cancer. Dealing with my DH diagnosis and treatment was the hardest thing I ever had to do, and the fear of what could go wrong hard to describe
I took a decision that I won't spend my life in fear. It was 16th of April last month when I said this needs to change. I need to move on. That I will focus on what could go right. I will start dreaming of future and having goals again. That regardless what I do, fear or not it won't make a difference to some things that may or not may happen but I won't spend my life in fear, I won't be paralysed to make decision, to peruse dreams, to be happy.
family loss is hard. We are going through that phase of losing and getting closer to the possibility of losing a generation in our family. I have already lost 2 aunts and an uncle. The most recent Aunt's funeral was another wake up of how small our family is getting - I can remember my Grandmother's and Great Aunt's funerals and family came from everywhere and made the time to get there and they were quite large events. But at the recent one many of the older relatives and getting too old to travel too far themselves or younger family members live further away and could not make it - it was a small gathering which in its own way seemed so sad for this wonderful person we had lost. My Dad also starts radiation treatment for prostate cancer tomorrow. Mum is grieving her sister and now facing this with Dad. So this is another fear factor at the moment - fear of losing family.
Well I have an anxiety disorder so fear unfortunately leads the pack OFTEN. I've learned to tame her though.
Well done I understand how hard that taming is.