Thank you everyone for the thoughts, encouragement, and advice. I've read everyone's comments at least twice, and I'm sure I will read them all several more times between now and the race.
Just to give you a little bit of insight into why I'm not feeling like I can just go for it...
Have any of you been a place where you felt like one more thing going wrong could completely break you?
I'm hoping the answer is no, because I wouldn't wish that on anyone, but if you do ... that's kind of where my head is right now. I'm honestly not 100% sure why now, but I'm just in a very bad place. Until I know what's happening and why, I dont want to add more to it.
Right now I'm having a cup of tea, and we'll see where things go from there.