@Zhoen Here is a quote from book I really like on excessive should I shouldn't I food debates and very good explanation on how stress can build up form it
"Lean Habits For Lifelong Weight Loss: Mastering 4 Core Eating Behaviors to Stay Slim Forever" by Georgie Fear
But then you spot the tray of brownies. Thick, fudgy, walnut-studded blocks of temptation, and your palms start to sweat. Your mind starts going, “I want one. I can’t have one. Yes, I can. But I shouldn’t, not if I want to lose weight. Well, one won’t hurt. Yes it will. Just walk away. Eat some celery …” An hour and a half later, you have eaten the veggies and hummus and shrimp you intended to, but your mind is still fixated on the brown
“I’ve held out this long, but I’ll never make it through the second half. I’m eating one. No! Don’t do it! You’ll regret it!” You keep looking at the tray, thinking that if you pick the smallest brownie, it won’t be so bad, or if you just break off a piece … you see other people looking happy and enjoying the game while you stew. You are tired of being unhappy, tired of not getting what you want. Resentment builds. You head over to the table, already feeling like a failure for giving in before you get there, so you shut out the shameful feelings and go into numb autopilot, grabbing one brownie with each hand and quickly darting into the kitchen so nobody sees you scarfing them down
More likely, you don’t feel satisfied after the first round, and want to eat and eat and eat, as you feel increasingly horrible about yourself and your behavior. What happened? Why does a seemingly normal social situation end in a dozen brownies and a silent car ride home during which your baffled husband tries to figure out what on earth has gotten you so upset that you look like you’re about to cry? The problem is not that you have a character flaw or weakness. The problem is not that you “can’t control yourself” or that you are “addicted to sugar.”
The problem is the food debate.
Georgie’s Law: the duration and emotional amplitude of your internal debate over eating a treat is proportional to the urgency and desire for massive quantities you’ll feel. In other words, the more minutes you spend vacillating back and forth over eating (or not eating) a food item, and the more impassioned you get over it, the more likely you are to consume a metric ton of it.
As a food debate progresses, the craving and tension you feel become less and less about the actual food and more about relieving the stress of the deliberation.
And if you decide even for one second “I’m going to eat it,” it’s like a doorway to feeling better just opened. So you sprint for it, consuming the contentious food hastily and in half awareness, as you fight to get it in before the stinging guilt sets in. The food is hardly ever satisfying because after all, you inhaled it and were primarily acting to escape the debate, not enjoy a sensory thrill. Since you’re left unsatisfied, it’s enticing to just keep going, thinking that it simply will take more of the food to feel better. As you can see, your thoughts are what drive compulsion or craving. It’s not a random thing like a hailstorm that just happens to you (and never happens to some others). You can learn to opt out of this thought pattern and stop suffering massive compulsions to eat all the ice cream. Once you stop giving yourself hailstorms in the form of emotional food debates, losing weight is easier. The experience can be “I ate it, I enjoyed it, I moved on.” Or, you can choose to pass on it, put it out of your mind and go back to the rest of your life. The key isn’t whether you say yes or no, but to make a decision and be done with it. Recognize that no one food decision is all that important, and there is no right or wrong way to use your treat budget. If you get twitchy and can feel tension rising about whether to eat something or not, remember what will really make you feel better is not the food, but ending the debate so your mind can be at peace."